dealing with stress

Stress. I hate that word. It almost stresses me out looking at it!! I feel like i get stressed so easy. I am not normally a neat person. But when it comes to time management I have to have everything planned out. If sometime comes up I get flustered. I feel like I am always flustered... BUT!! IT always works out for me somehow. I think God works in mysterious ways and I think that is one way that I notice it. I notice it a lot with school work, if I dont have something done that is due, magically my class will  be canceled or we will get out early in another class so i have time to finish it. 

Exercising always helps me be less stressed. but, if you dont lke to exercise that could make you more frustrated. IF I just take out a minute and tell myself its not a big deal. I always sweat the small stuff. I feel like everything is the biggest deal. I have to tell myself it will work out like it always does. OR if i have something to look forward to at the end of the day it helps me get past all the other stuff that I do not like to do

relationships...

One relationship that I would like to continue is a relationship with my mom. She is my best friend. Our relationship was never that strong untill I got into college. I think it changed because she started treating me more as an adult that a kid. We treat eachother more as best friends than mother and daughter. I call her by her first name which everything things is really weird, but i tell her everything.

one things to strenthen that, is to call every night and when she comes up for my volleyball games to go out to dinner with her after. I try to call every night but sometimes my day is a little too busy. You would think its easy to call and talk for 5 minutes, but when we talk on the phone we talk for an hour at least. When she comes up for my home games usually I make plans to go eat with friends or watch a movie after. I felt really bad this weekend because I did not go out to eat with her at all. I feel like a part of my day is missing if I dont get to talk to her everyday.

I have never been so homesick as I am right now. I am SOOO excited to go home for thanksgiving and to be with my friends and family.

yoga

I had fun in Yoga today. i felt really relaxed after I left. I really would like to start doing that more. I think it would help me in volleyball. I have a bad back, and i think it helped the little that i did. I had to leave early and ride on the bus for 7 hours but when i got to the hotel, I did some of the poses we learned and stretched out my back.

I was really sad to hear about the girl dying. It makes me really sad to see people do that to their bodies. But I also do understand that they really cant help it. And most of the time they get really upset with people telling them to just stop. I did not know the girl but i knew people who knew her. IT is always hard to hear something like that, you wish you could of done something but never know what. 

busy busy busy

WOW I feel like i have had NO time!! That is one of my goals to manage my time so I dont feel stressed.. but i actually do not feel stressed. I have gotten all my homework done(well but this class :( ) and i feel like i am really on top of things.

MY personal goal for my group was to get 7 hours of sleep and to try not to watch TV right before I go to bed. For some reason my body can not sleep very well. I want to look into it more and find out why i wake up so much. I am getting my 7 hours in, and even a quick nap here and there!! MY lab was canceled this morning so I get to get back to bed now!!!! YIPPEE!!

Ms. Tucker--- I need to come talk to you about changing my major!! Every time I stop by you aren't there and now i can not remember when your office hours are! ORRR someone else I could talk to?!!?

progress?

I feel like the past two weeks have been really hard on me. We had a few hard games in volleyball and lost and it got me really down. I havent been playing as well as i should be. I feel behind in only one class, but i feel like it is impossible to get caught up!!! I am eating semi healthy. It is hard when i am always on the go. The last couple of weeks havent been so good for my goals. But this is a new week. We won our game last night, we have another tonight.

I really like the weather so that is keeping me stay positive and happy! Most people hate this weather, but I think that it is beautiful!!!

be yourself

"Wanting to be someone is a waste of the person you are."

Wow. Could not have hit it more on the dot than that. I agree. I think that you are the way you are for a reason. You may not feel like you have a purpose or why your here but there is a reason. It may take a whole life time to realize why that is as well. People always say I wish i was her/him. but really i think people mean they wish they had some of their life style. But a life style is something that we totally can control. I dont know the reason that I am here on this planet. But I know I am for some reason. I am happy with the life that i live. I know I make bad choices but I learn from them..

I dont want to waste the time that I do have on earth. So I will be who I am.

So far...

I am really confused on what we are doing. I get the over all picture and I think that it is really cool but I am just confused on how we are going to really get people to see this. I think that some people in class have such good ideas and they need to share those with others because just being in class has helped me so far.

As far as my goals go, I think I am doing pretty well on both!!! I am really positive this semester. I think that I can try harder on trying to keep up with everything but overall im happy with everything.

I have a really big volleyball game tomorrow that I am very excited for!! Everyone should come!! It is a black out game!!! I think that is all for now... I am not sure if Ms. Tucker is my follower? Does any one know how to add her!?

Self-Concept

I do agree with the statement that your self compect is formed by what other people tell you. I think at the ages from 6 to 12 you don't have the confidence to know any better. If someone told you.. your dress was ugly, or you talked funny, I would believe it at that age. I remember going home from school one day crying because the boy I had a crush on told me that my dress was ugly. I loved that dress; I was even the one who picked it out with my mom. But, I convinced myself that it was ugly and I never wore it again. I think those years shape who you are, even if you don't remember it.

I got a long with everyone when i was little. I was a tom boy so I hung out with mostly boys. I think they made fun of me a lot mostly because I was something different from them and they did not understand them. I think that helped shape me for who I am today though. I still think that I get along with boys better than girls, but I can take anything that people say to me. I wouldnt want to change anything about my childhood, I had so much fun. My parents demanded a lot from me. So now, I demand a lot from myself.

I love fall!!!

I love this time of year. I love the weather, the new starts of being in school, and volleyball. There are lots of things that I would change if I had the chance, but I know that some things are unchangeable and make me part of who I am. I thought it was important to understand that we do have room to change and grow. That is the first step in making a cange.
A few things that I can control that I would like to change are: keeping up with school and getting good grades, and staying positive. I am in a sport right now and I miss a lot of school so its difficult to keep up with everything. I put everything off till the very last minute then get very stressed out. This then makes me be negative about everything, including my sport. I want to try to stay organized. So far I have done a pretty good job, but I always start out good and then get lazy. I have a lot of growth to be made, but this will be the start for me. I think its a good beginning for me because I will be organized and happy!!